urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu Benjamin John Crooks Benjamin John Crooks 2005-04-17T19:16:50Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:37660 2005-04-17T19:16:50Z 2005-04-17T19:16:50Z so ive decided...<br /><br />drama = stupid.<br /><br />but what is funny is, LiveJournal is drama. Myspace is drama...fucking even AIM is drama.<br /><br />Everything anyone ever fucking does is drama...and thats why i cant stand being in fucking high school anymore.<br /><br />i honestly just want to drop out. go live downtown.<br /><br />and fucking take one person with me....who i know is beyond sick of drama. Megan McClure. lol. she's fed up with it. i kno.<br /><br />Since everyone loves drama...im going to start some maybe...on here...if anyone reads it and wants to fight...i wont fight...ill just sit and lauph...because your all so fucking gayyyyy.<br /><br />People at my school....there are probably 5 people i like. Matt, Luke, Danny, Sean, Zach...thats about fucking it. Everyone else can fucking suck my dick. You all are fucking idiots. Especially all of you girls that go to carmel. You are all WHORES! you try and so fucking cool. Especially the "punk" crowd at our school. FUCKING GAYYYYY you all are. <br /><br />Here is a list of people i like...if your not on it. You gay. your a bitch. you a fucking whore. you have aids. AND YEAH. you can go fuck yourselves. the dash 0's means how many fights ive been in with them....<br /><br />Megan.-0<br />Ryan.-0<br />Matt.-maybe 1<br />Luke.-0<br />Danny.-0<br />Dave.-0<br />Dave.-0<br />Sean.-0<br />Zach.-0<br />Terry.-0<br />Kyle.-0<br />Jason.-0<br />Ben.-0<br />Toby.-0<br />Caitlin.-0<br /><br />Thats it. so basically if you arnt one of them...unless i forgot you and then im really sorry...but most likely i fucking hate you. hahahahahah<br /><br />....it sucks tho people. I have a feeling....after high school drama...its just college drama...then adult drama....i mean then you get married and fight and get divorced....so really what the fuck is the point in being friends with anyone...<br /><br />turn gothic everyone.<br /><br />goodbye. lol. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:37546 2005-03-19T18:54:42Z 2005-03-19T19:01:50Z mewithoutYou Alright. Ladies and Gentleman, boys and girls. Its been how flippin long since ive updated my livejouranl...and actually wrote about something. ahh i dont know millions of <b>YEARS MAYBBE!!!</b> lemme tell you the low down, on wats goin on in mY life...<br /><br />Surrender The Age is getting many shows. Next weekend we play two and im really excited. We are also playing with In The Face of War in a while. Im so pumped. You all should really check us out...<br /><br />www.surrendertheage.com<br />www.hxcmp3.com<br />www.myspace.com/surrendertheage<br /><br />Last night we played a Battle of the Bands at Eagle Church in zionzville and sum fucking pop punk band who sucked won and well idk. we freeked out and our vocalist couldnt make it :(<br /><br />...BUT!!!<br /><br />i met this girl, not at the show, but she came with me. Her name is Britney. Shes a pretty little girl and i hung out with her all night. after the show we went back to her house...we went to starbucks and talked about being high and stuff haha it was funny. then we met her WEIRD friends at Taco Bell...this one kid kept lookin at me...weird. huh. anyway i slept at her house last night and it was amazing even tho i only got 2 hours of sleep. ehh oh well. im not really tierd. now im home and not with her. BLAH!<br /><br />sooo here is the last thing ill write about...i wrote a poem.song. watever. just lyrics...words...idk...read it bitches. (reminded my friend of mewithoutYou)<br /><br />As you lay,<br />in a bed<br />full of sorrows and fears.<br />You cut me deep,<br />and I watch myself bleed,<br />on this concrete floor.<br />Cold and Quiet,<br />you are dying<br />and i can not go on anymore.<br /><br />I came to your funeral,<br />but i didnt see the casket<br />nor the ones who loved<br />.you.<br />as Deeply as I do.<br /><br />Then the skies<br />they turned dark and grey<br />and I layed my precious head<br />upon the sandstone rock<br />enscribed with your name<br />Memories disapear,<br />life seems a genrous gift,<br />for only a few years,<br />and ended the day you left.<br /><br />I came to your funeral,<br />but i didnt see the casket<br />nor the ones who loved<br />.you.<br />as Deeply as I do.<br /><br /><br /><br />HAHA YAY! &lt;3333 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:37302 2005-03-01T21:24:00Z 2005-03-01T21:24:00Z <img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v624/bleedmyheart/Flyer.jpg"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:36997 2004-12-16T12:21:45Z 2004-12-16T12:21:45Z i wish i was with my megan and not going to school urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:36621 2004-12-13T17:03:06Z 2004-12-13T17:03:06Z Should Have Stayed In The Shallows im here in business class...doing nothing. we have this project, and im not doing it right now...its a huge project and weve had like 5 days in the computer lab, but i havnt done shit.<br /><br />soo here is what ive been thinking about a lot lately. megan thinks smoking is disgusting...and even though she says she really doesnt care. we talked about it for a while last night, and i understand why she wouldnt believe im quiting. i did lie to her about it the first time...i told her that i would tell her when i smoke, but i never did....but for sum reason this time is different...i want to quit. i dont know why really...i mean its because i dont want to do it if it makes megan unhappy, but i mean my body has just had no desire to smoke in the past like week. so here it is...im quiting. i dont know why everyone smokes, because i also realize that when im like 25 and smoking still ill be like smoking a pack and half a day or something, and ill basically be killing myself and thats stupid, i need to quit while i can.<br /><br />but i have had no desire to smoke a cigarette. i hope everyone helps me out and doesnt push me or even offer me anything.<br /><br /><br />...anyway....<br /><br /><br />its almost christmas break, and i know what im getting megan, but i dont know what to get anyone else. i really dont have many freinds that deserve presents from me...but i do have a few...and im not sure what to do....i dont have that much money...and i need to save it for a new amp...everyone else in my band is practically gunna be spoiled this christmas...which isnt really a bad thing...luke is getting a new fucking P.A. haha...jeff is getting a 5150 stack...ryan a new cab that will sound sex with his new marshall head...my parents dont spoil me unfortunatly so i really wont get anything good for x-mas, which is okay all i want is clothes, but my parents cant pick out cute clothes...because they think i dress like a gay guy. hahahah. yesh im gay? i think not....unless megan is secretly a guy. weird. hahah anywayz<br /><br />im thinking about just typing for like the whole fucking period. that would be retarded, but kinda funny, no one actually reads these livejournal entries i do, so i could like talk a bunch of shit about everyone i know, and you fuckers wouldnt know! lol. serves you right for not reading this....see now im just like typing when i really dont need to be.<br /><br />"""""<b>Lets coke like we're vacuums and dance our troubles away before we drive our cars off bridges.<br />Ladies and gentlemen. Boys and girls.<br />Lets pry her ribs open. And bathe in her chest</b>"""""<br /><br /><b>&lt;3</b>Fear Before The March of Flames<b>&lt;3</b><br /><br />megan really is gettin me into this fear before...ive been listening to them a lot.<br /><br />i really dont think i need to type anymore since no ones reading...<br /><br />Byeeeeeeeeeeee x urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:36462 2004-12-13T03:25:53Z 2004-12-13T16:37:34Z <img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v624/bleedmyheart/meganandben2.jpg"><br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v624/bleedmyheart/hair.jpg"><br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v624/bleedmyheart/hood.jpg"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:36116 2004-12-13T02:57:49Z 2004-12-13T02:57:49Z the chariot just sittin here online...trying to book a show for my band this weekend...with elijah...who knows if itll happen....if it does, its saturday so id have to get off work...and im jsut waiting for megan to get home because i want to talk to her....im so bored when like im not talking to megan or hanging out with megan....like seriously, all my friends are ghay...i realize all that they do is smoke, sit around, and then smoke....its so stupid....i mean ryan is fun and i need to hang out with him WAY more...but my friends are ghay. megan is not gay however...shes a little BUTT FACE but shes my favorite&lt;333 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:35858 2004-12-11T17:40:16Z 2004-12-11T17:40:16Z the bled its saturday. im at megans&lt;3 i came over here about 8:30 haha and we slept...she was completely out. i messed with her a bit while she was sleeping, but she was so asleep she didnt notice. i could only sleep until like 10 i dont know why, but i just kinda watched TV while she slept. she just got done taking a shower...look at how CUTE she is...even if shes a little sick...awwwww she is all sittin on the bed. adorable. she makes me so happy. haha shes getting pissed because im looking at her. o well. im gunna go lay with her. byee byee urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:35764 2004-12-10T12:08:27Z 2004-12-10T12:08:27Z Unearth about to go to school.<br /><br />then to megans!<br /><br />&lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:35523 2004-12-09T20:33:43Z 2004-12-09T20:33:43Z The Ropes of Iscariot ;) same thing as yesterday. just got home from school and im about to go to work...fun huh? lets see if i have any exciting story besides my hair is being ghayyy today...<br /><br />ohhh well i guess this an exciting story...<br /><br />im quiting smoking.<br /><br />if anyone see's me wanting a cigarette do not give me one or let me smoke one...<br /><br />im quiting because its disgusting, and megan hates it. i dont need to be doing something thats gunna make megan upset with me and its bad for me and i shouldnt be doing it in the first place...<br /><br />but my story is today in business class we watched a whole hour video on cigarettes...it was the ghayyest thing ever i wanted to smoke sooo bad...so after school i like ran to my car so i couldnt ask anyone for any...thats what i figured i have to do...oviously not buy any, but kinda just try and stay away from them so i cant have the chance....im really trying to quit this time....there is no lying about it....its just over.<br /><br />time for work. BEN&lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:35129 2004-12-08T20:50:01Z 2004-12-08T20:50:01Z Lamb of God The Ropes of Iscariot<br /><br />its a cool name, im not sure tho if were gunna keep it. we are all really bad with band names and stuff. Danny came up with this one...<br /><br />I just got home from school, about to go to work blahhh fuck.<br /><br />SO LAST NIGHT....<br /><br />Megan thought she would be funny and be all like..."if your name starts with a <b>b</b> then DONT TALK to me....<br /><br />i got really worried i was like ohh shit what did i do, which i really didnt think that i did anything, so i spent a while calling her trying to find out what was wrong, i felt like i was gunna throw up because one i hadnt eaten anything and 2 i was so worried...but anyway...i actually get a hold of her and start talking, i was like "no megan tell me whats wrong" and she just kept saying "no im not gunna tell you" then i get a call from one our friends and he was just saying "dude, its a joke, she just messing around" hahahah so i was like FUCKKK...so i switch back over to her on the other line and i was like "im gunna killl you!!!" and we started lauphing, but she got me good and really had me worried...im coming up with a plan to really get her good....just you wait and see, it will be awesome.&lt;333<br /><br />anyway, me and her are doing really good and i cant wait to be with her this weekend. i love every minute with her, and so i think about us together a lot, it may be why i worry sumtimes....because im always thinking of her and i really want to be with her for a long time...she just makes me HAPPY!&lt;333<br /><br />so now i have to go...tonight im gunna re-do meganss live journal and make it pretty, but not as pretty as mine. <br /><br />byeeee.&lt;333 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:34873 2004-12-07T17:40:16Z 2004-12-07T17:40:16Z Fear Before the March of Flames Has anyone looked at their live journals in the past 17 years? i mean shit. i havnt been on livejournal in forever. It's been all about the myspace lately, at least online. Being online is so stupid, but im gunna start this journal shit back up.<br /><br /> Soo if everyone didnt know, i have a girlfriend....shes absolutely Gorgeous. Her name is Megan McClure. When i get sum new pictures of us together ill put it up on livejournal for everyone tooo see.<br /><br />&lt;3 x November 17 x &lt;3<br /><br /> Besides her, my band has been really doing good. We are deciding on our name for good tomorrow...rumors are it may be Ropes of Isariate or something along that line....i really cant remember because Danny writes all the stuff that has to do with words. We are also recording soon...and of course getting shows....it will be easy once we have a cd (which we are recording for free!)<br /><br /> Other than that, the only thing new is i dye'd my hair. Its really good because Megannn did it. <br /><br />Goodbye Fairwell...i will write again soon...if anyone is actually reading this. <br /><br />Byeeeeeeeeeeee urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:34606 2004-10-01T12:20:12Z 2004-10-01T12:20:12Z Woah mother fuckers. im updating my livejournal. WEIRD.!. so uhm i dont like girls anymore. im not gay, but i decided im not gunna try with girls anymore. im just gunna play fucking awesome music with my band(luke, ryan, jeff) Today is homecoming day. Tomorrow is the dance and i work. im really getting fucking tierd of work. and i need more friends. ive been kinda ignoring the ones i have. i cant wait for fall break tho because matthew is going with me to Glen Lake, Michigan. Hopefully we will get to see our friend who moved there. but we have to fuckin go to schoool nurrgers! cya. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:34521 2004-08-30T11:37:49Z 2004-08-30T11:37:49Z Eighteen Visions Wow. its been like 13 million months since ive updated my journal and im wondering if ppl even still read these things. i remember when i first started Lj's. wow those were the times? haha. uhm i dont have much to tell everyone. The Awesomes are back! i guess thats pretty exciting. my other band, Ananiah, isnt doing so well. Ryan, he plays guitar, is moving. i dont know where tho. on the other hand, ive met this beautiful girl Aubrey and i really like her a lot. ive been hanging out with her most of my weekends and i bet shes getting a little tierd of me. haha. uhm im gunna dye my hair again tomorrow, just black again, its starting to become brown black or something. that is basically all the update your gunna get because no one ever comments so whats the fucking point hahah. have a wonderful day. Love. Ben. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:34175 2004-07-15T17:02:35Z 2004-07-15T17:02:35Z here is....a crapy song i wrote....yep<br /><br /><br /><br />The sun burns my flesh,<br />as my body begins to rot.<br />The tears still flow from these eyes,<br />although my fingers lay still.<br />This cut in my neck and this knife in my heart,<br />No longer hurts, for the pain has gone, along with your love.<br /><br />Your lips once spoke of love,<br />A true love I thought we held.<br />We held that believe in our minds,<br />Until that day your lips were no longer mine.<br />I am sorry for all I’ve done, <br />and I am sorry he had to go.<br /><br />This is the end of life,<br />This black and white still frame,<br />Lost for ever in a picture book of “love”<br />This great love has cut open my throat,<br />Spilling blood on the white sheets,<br />But now those white sheets, are black<br />And forever lost in darkness. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:33871 2004-07-05T19:47:02Z 2004-07-05T19:47:02Z ok so look i have a new layout. its uhm kinda cool i think. yeah so this thursday were having a show...annex again...at the emerson and well since we hanvt been practicing...im not really sure if im gunna be ready. i really hope so, it sounds like its going to be lots of fun. i may just have to go and play open D a lot and FREEK OUT. hehe. so uhm yeah livejournals. are cool. anyway. i really feel like Taco Bell...you know how it goes. im going to carmel fest tonight with my family? i dont know, im not gunna stay with them. like fo sho. hahah. anyeone i know...please come. buhbye urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:33789 2004-06-27T04:47:14Z 2004-06-27T04:47:14Z "Slipped Away" <br />by Avril Lavigne....yeah i love her music...fuck off.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /> <br /><b>I miss you, miss you so bad<br />I don't forget you, oh it's so sad<br />I hope you can hear me<br />I remember it clearly<br /><br />The day you slipped away<br />Was the day I found it won't be the same <br />Ooooh<br /><br />Nah nah la la la nah nah<br /><br />I didn't get around to kiss you<br />Goodbye on the hand<br />I wish that I could see you again<br />I know that I can't<br /><br />Oooooh<br />I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly<br /><br />The day you slipped away<br />Was the day I found it won't be the same<br />Ooooh<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />I had my wake up<br />Won't you wake up<br />I keep asking why<br />And I can't take it<br />It wasn't fake<br />It happened, you passed by<br /><br />Now your gone, now your gone<br />There you go, there you go<br />Somewhere I can't bring you back<br />Now your gone, now your gone<br />There you go, there you go,<br />Somewhere your not coming back<br /><br />The day you slipped away<br />Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..<br />The say you slipped away<br />Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...<br /><br />Nah nah, nah nah nah, nah nah <br />I miss you</b><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />I am in love with a girl. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:33514 2004-06-15T16:42:25Z 2004-06-15T16:42:25Z yeah. im in summer school. its lots of fun? or something. its cool we are in the computer lab though, i finished my shit half an hour early. weehoo. so yeah. when school's out, im going to go hang out with Ryan. we are gunna probably teach me some more songs so hopefully i can play the show on the 25th. hah. i still havnt figured out where it is. im invloved huh? nyway. drama drama drama. i love it? nope. im meeting this girl i think on wednesday. her name is missy. haha infact, i met her on Myspace.com I swear that im addicted to that. Joe is also. me and him have like conversations about being addicted. haha. i think joe, zach, and i might hang out this week. i would like that. joe is the man. last night austin called and we talked on the phone for like half an hour...it was kinda cute. haha. &lt;3 i hope my old friends realize that not talking to me....is not cool....so they should start talking to me again. what did i really do to deserve it? uhm nothing big...or at least for you to just stop talking to me...you both know who you are. oh well. i miss Marlee. my friend who moved to California. well guess what? she is moving back! YAYAY! im so excited to see her. hahah wouldnt it be funny if just made this update like half an hour of typing. i think i will. I will just keep typing until the bell rings. that would be mother fucking nuts! hahah. ok ill just like tell a story or do something. once upon a time in the land of poop there lived a thing named Terd? is that a good story? its not finished, but its a master piece in action? or something. hahahahah. ok i wont do that. lets see. oh yeah i can talk about Marlee a bunch. well I met marlee like 2 1/2 years ago. I went to one of my dads sunday football party and like the lady's house we were at...her son had friends over. and one was Marlee. i didnt know her but i thought she was beautiful. so i got her screen name? i think. haha. i dont know, it was back when i was gay and got everyones sreen name...i never talked on the phone and really didnt have a life. i never had like hung out with girls. hah ok so like i talked to her online for a while but then she moved. well the before Marlee came back for the first time we started talking...A lot. so when she came back i was soooo happy, i think we went bowling one night but it was with out parents. and we also saw a movie. i think...maybe that was the secound time she came to visit. well anyway...i really missed her after she left. when she came back again we went swiming one day and whatever...but the few times we hung out when she comes back to indy...its boring because we cant do much, one we are with out parents or two neither of us could drive then...idk....it was just gay...so this time im going to see her like every day. haha ill go pick up and shit. fur shur. it sounds like i barely know this girl, but its not true. me and her are like this fo sho. hahaha. ok now ill tell another story. how about the story where....i got my first kiss? sure sounds good. well it was only like 2 summers ago. hahah isnt that weird? no not really. her name was Amanda. actually she was the one who introduced me to Tiffany but Tiffany hates me so oh well. anyway. Amanda, i was at her house once hahahaha...just once and i kissed her and she was like aww that was your first kiss and i was like shut up slut. hahahahaha no it wasnt like that but it would be awesome if it was. why am i still rambling on? who knows. anyway. it was at her house on a sofa in the garage. hahah it was very weird...then there was this other time i kissed amanda, but we wont go there. after that first kiss, basically i went out with Tiffany, that could have been the best days of my life...but its not anymore because she again...hates me hahaha. uhm yeah we are probably getting out early so like i guess i will only be able to type for 15 min...sorry im out of here...im not staying in school....BYEE!!<br /><br /><br /><br />&lt;3<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />&lt;3<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Neb urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:33108 2004-06-13T15:34:05Z 2004-06-13T15:34:05Z hmmm so yeah, since i have a lot to write about, and i never write in my journal...here it goes.<br /><br />lately sum spacific people have been real gay to me...Tiffany calls me up one day and starts to say Brian doesnt want us talking on the phone so....and i hung up right then because thats really gay and im not dealing with that shit....if she thinks her stupid boyfriend is more important than haveing me as a friend...fine...<br /><br />the otherday brittany was real pissed off at me, basically from the start of the day, i guess she had a head ache and when i didnt turn the music off in my car, she got pissed. also when i told her "shut the fuck up" because she said the awesomes sucked...she got pissed....idk she wasnt being a very cool person that day...im still cool with her....even though she hates me.<br /><br />on the other hand, i am in a new band. its called Ananiah and i love it! i had my first band practice with them a few days ago and i think they like me 2. ive learned only one song and our next show is the 25th. haha i hope i can play that show.<br /><br />uhm not much more i can say really. so maybe ill update my journal again in the next 100 years.<br /><br />_Ben_ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:32972 2004-05-07T04:07:01Z 2004-05-07T04:07:01Z hey yes im updating my journal...and it is amazing. im at matts house right now and were chillin like bro's. im online...he is playing a vid. and were sexy. uhmm idk im really starting to hate livejournals....so just kinda like leave me a million comments and then i might come on here more.<br /><br /><br />LOVE<br /><br /><br />Ben urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:32733 2004-04-23T23:24:51Z 2004-04-23T23:31:18Z Dead Poetic-The New Medicines Cd <b>New Pictures!!!</b><br /><a href="http://img53.photobucket.com/albums/v162/oneEmokid/Ben_Outsidebass.jpg">http://img53.photobucket.com/albums/v162/oneEmokid/Ben_Outsidebass.jpg</a><br /><a href="http://img53.photobucket.com/albums/v162/oneEmokid/Ben_from_below.jpg">http://img53.photobucket.com/albums/v162/oneEmokid/Ben_from_below.jpg</a><br /><a href="http://img53.photobucket.com/albums/v162/oneEmokid/Ben_Sexy.jpg">http://img53.photobucket.com/albums/v162/oneEmokid/Ben_Sexy.jpg</a><br /><b>Look at them! hehe</b> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:32035 2004-04-16T01:12:34Z 2004-04-16T01:17:33Z <img src="http://img53.photobucket.com/albums/v162/oneEmokid/Ben_and_Sisters.jpg"><br />This is me and both my sisters on the cruise we just were on.<br /><img src="http://img53.photobucket.com/albums/v162/oneEmokid/Ben_up_above.jpg"><br />this is me being...hott<br /><img src="http://img53.photobucket.com/albums/v162/oneEmokid/Ben_with_mouth_open.jpg"><br />uhh i dont know what im doing<br /><img src="http://img53.photobucket.com/albums/v162/oneEmokid/Ben_being_totaly_retarded.jpg"><br />what the fuck.<br /><br /><br />hope you all enjoyed those pictures...im outa hurr. bye urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:31958 2004-04-12T22:10:37Z 2004-04-12T22:10:37Z Is everyone glad that they are back in school??? i sure as hell am not. actually im hella pissed/sad that spring break is over. i miss everyone that i met on my cruise! Meredith, Dominica, Jackie, Kate, Steve, Paul, Ryan, Tyler....it sucks we wont see each other for a long time...if ever...Meredith im coming to visit you and Dom this summer dont worry. anyway....so my cruise was awesome. Sunday i left and it was a long ass trip. we went threw chicago to orlando and from there we took a bus to Port Canaveral. the ship left port around 5 and i just kinda walked around the ship and stuff...the next day monday was a day at sea and i didnt do much all day besides read!! by the way im reading this book Angels & Demons by Dan Brown and its like an awesome book and im getting into reading...its weird anyway...that night i was walking around and i these 2 girls talked to me and i ended up meeting and hanging out with a bunch of people...so now i had friends and it was good....the next day we were in CoCo Kay and it was nice there.we just sat on the beach and me and my step dad went on this wilderness walk or watever...we saw some jelly fish in like pools of water when the tide was out. the next day we were in Jamaca but sadly i didnt get off the boat, i stayed on and read my book and got tan.(im not very tan tho) the next day we were in gran camon i think and we did snorkling with sting rays. it was kinda scary but hella cool/fun. the next day i went snooba in Casumel and it was like the most fun ever...its like scooba only your air tank is on a little boat above water and you have a air thing giong down to you...we were like 30 ft. below the surface...and well i think it was that night i met Meredith and Dominica. they are crazy girls especially dominica, haha she got in trouble the last day, but anyway me and meredith stayed up late i think the first night we met and there was this girl following us you see...and well she was ugly and she was annoying and ahhhh i did not like her at all....she was all like ben we should hook up and i was like no, because now i wanna puke. hahahahahahah anyway...the rest of the days i hung out with meredith and dominica a lot. we had a day at sea and Mer. and I stayed up all night and she wooped my ass in checkers when i even cheated. grrr. we watched us go in port and i really enjoyed it. ((Meredith is cute)) anywayz, im glad to be home and see all my friends again...i love you all. i think now im done updating leave me lots of comments. k? hehe &lt;3<br /><br /><b>&lt;3&lt;3---Ben---&lt;3&lt;3<b></b></b> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:31558 2004-04-03T03:12:08Z 2004-04-03T03:12:08Z alright so i got an exciting story to tell. today i woke up around noon because i was so tierd from last nights AWESOME show. all the bands played really good. anywayz....today i went over to tiffs to see her before i left on my cruise...well on the way there....i guess i wasnt paying enough attention to the road, and i rerended some womans car....LUCKILY she had a big truck so i didnt do any damage to her car, altho i do have some damage to mine...and i have a little cap from her car stuck in there. idk....i REALLY REALLY hope that the lady doesnt call or file anything....my insurance will be sooo high if she does. anyway...i got to tiffanys and we listend to MAE in my car and talked for a while about a bunch of things. it was nice, so i went home and i told my parents about the car thing and they were dissapointed but not mad...i was like THANK GOD!! im real pissed at myself tho. tonight i went to zach fredericks and we played video games and sam and i got taco bell for the 3 of us. well thats about it....i might not update my livejournal again until i get back from the cruise. i leave sunday at 3a.m. so leave me like 100 comments and ill feel loved...if there arnt 100 ill kill every single one of you ;-)<br /><br /><br /><b>~~&lt;3 LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH &lt;3~~<b></b></b> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:antiflagsofu:31338 2004-03-28T23:16:57Z 2004-03-28T23:16:57Z Hello everyone. im supposed to be updating about my hair because Lauren told me 2. heh. uhm i have a fohawk now and its totally bad ass because Lolo cut it, and if anyone thinks otherwise...screw you. hahah Lauren and Whitney did a very good job cutting mine and matts hair. Thanks girls love ya. uhh anywayz this weekend was awesome and im sooo much happier. Friday i went with matt to his show and got to hang out with everyone. i got pretty jelous that night..but it happens. we left after OWIB played they did real good. we went to this girls going away party who i didnt know until haha her party. Whitney is a really cool girl and its a shame i didnt meet her until now. well at her party we told her and lolo we would take them out to breakfast...but matt and i didnt get up till like 11:30 so...we took them to lunch and we actually spent like 3 hours at lunch just talking and it was REALLY REALLY NICE. the weather and the talking that is. Lauren and I seem to never get to hang out, and we did and it was awesome. i cant wait to do it again SOON. anyway. we went to matts after that and they cut matts hair...and then i guess it was my turn because the girls cut my hair and since lolo told me i needed a fohawk..i got one. hehe. after that i went bowling with my old friend robby who i never see anymore. today i didnt do much besides yard work. i went to zachs after yard work and we watched Braveheart. hella good movie. Leave me comments Plzzz! Love you all.